fruity life with fertility

 
      Hello,, it is being so long,,,,,,,,
I am so glad to back on life track again and happy to share my learnings, experiences, hopes......
Moments of joy, blessing and peaceful mind were surrounded my journey for the last  3years. Experiences toward life was so richly inherent me with energy to be strongly believer in love,to wish and act on more love with capacity to make life more joyful and available whenever and wherever it is.

Being on fertility thoughts for 3 years was part of the uncontrollable joy. It was  surprising and overwhelming  to be handled. It is when you just hang life and stop planning and get in focus on some thing you never ever being  able to predict its success as mostly if certainly is unpredictable.

People try to manage many facts surround  it and I was one of them. I tried several times to judge with science, old tradition, intuitiveness to make possible reasoning and help my hopes up to sleep well. It is the moments you couldn't stop dreaming and you can't resist your desire to be a Mum every day. It's the days that gonna tell you please rest well and ignore the whole worries around that. The days has finally spoke and scream it out that its none of your own problems. If it happens it happens. Moreover, what ever you wanna add on that red track it's only your own responsibilities to allow your self living in doubt prison. The doubt prison will let you figure  fertility facts every month to influence the thought and you become addict and isolated in separate world.  It's really too late to get it for me but finally am glad to make it to this conclusion. Fertility thought is not of my hand. It's not my googling trip any more. It is not my choice. It happens for reasons I don't know or influence these reasons and I cannot guarantee that my better understanding of my case will change or will make me happier rather than worried, doubtful person who lives in another unexplained orientation beside unexplained infertility
So number one is its your choice to be in unexplained moods for days and years or just to have medically unexplained issues and try to accept that and work on to have at least a peaceful explained mind.